Back... TO THE FUTURE!!!

The next month and a half should be exciting.

I just bought tickets to see the Cubs play the Dodgers next Thursday at Dodger Stadium (which I'm stoked about). Then, my schedule is going to change at Universal Studios and I will only be working 5 days a week between my two jobs instead of 6. That will free me up some more and I'll finally be able to submit myself for auditions and such. Speaking of, I've been putting off joining the online casting sites because I want to get new headshots and have my "image" ready to get out there when it's all good and ready. Out here, it's all about the finished product that you're selling. If I submit my old headshots with short hair and they call me into those auditions and I show up not looking like the picture, they will not be pleased.

Even so... I realize I'm getting too ansy.

Even though my hair won't be as long as I want it to be, and I won't have new headshots by that point, I realize that I've been putting it off to long and I just need to jump in. I mean, what's the worst case scenario? That I'm actually going to get auditions?!?!

I think I can live with that.

Also, my older sister is pregnant with her second child and she is due July 9th. My brother and I figured what better time to visit the Midwest and see my family and friends? So, on July 3rd we'll be flying out to Chicago until the 11th. I'm really looking forward to being back home and seeing familiar faces. it will be nice to see my family, new nephew/niece, and return to my college town and see friends again. I'm curious to see how I'll feel being back home after being what feels like "exiled" in California for the past 6 months. Since I'm used to moving and revisiting places over the years, my guess is that it will feel just as I left it. Regardless, it will be a great break from the craziness of life in LA.

Life hasn't changed in the past few weeks. I'm working, working, and working. My hair is growing. I got my stimulus check which was great. Same old, same old. But it's what is needed right now. Some days are better than others. The best ones are when I can just sit in solace and take in my surroundings and have perspective of where my life is right now and where I want it to be in the future.

Oh, I bought workout bench and a weight set and I've gone back to my workout routine from last summer so that I can try and gain some more weight/muscle. Since I have a freakishly high metabolism (it might have something to do with being born 9 weeks premature...) it's very hard for me to gain weight. And when I do gain it, it goes to my stomach and chin. Man, I hate it. Right now I'm at 150-152 lbs and my goal is to be at 165. If I could get to that weight range, I would be pleased and it would give me more of an average build and increase my opportunities for roles in the future. It's funny to have to worry about all these things, but I've learned that since your basically selling "yourself" in this business, all of these things come in to play ten-fold.

Finally, I think i've find another comparison to what I want my hair to look like:











Laugh if you must.







Movie Reviews of the Day:
The Mist - 4 stars
Speed Racer - 4 stars
The Savages - 4.5 stars
Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian - 4 stars
Silk - 4 stars
27 Dresses - 3 stars
Kingdom of Heaven - 4.5 stars

"There is no future in the past."

I'm not sure who coined this phrase, but I think it's very appropriate at this time in my life.

As I listen to "Everything I Own" by NSYNC I'm brought back to the yesteryears of my life. I know I'm young (a mere 23) but I think I finally hit the stage that most hit out of college. I'd give an arm and a leg to just have one more summer back in college, full of drinking, friends, volleyball, etc. However, this isn't in the cards for me. I'm creeping up on the 6 month mark of being in California. 6 MONTHS?!?! Yup, it sure has flown by. As I could get up and move back at any given moment, I know that it's not what is called for in my life. I want to be a film actor, and to do this, I have to sacrifice a lot of things. I had to give up being near family, friends, a different climate, different culture, etc. to come out here. Lately it's been hitting me hard.

As I go through old pictures, online journals, emails, facebook messages, I'm reminded of times, places, and people that I miss like crazy, and I can't help but think of the many "what if's?". When it comes down to it though, I know that this isn't healthy. I have to face the fact that I've made the choices in my life and have to live with the outcome. The fact is that I'm in LA, pursuing acting and need to make the most of what I have. period. Unfortunately, it's not that easy sometimes. Day in day out, I go through the same thing, working as much as possible. At least in a little while I'll be able to sign up for casting sites and start auditioning. I know once I can start doing that, things will change for the good. At least it will be a welcome change.

I'm finally getting my tax returns and soon enough my stimulus check, so that will be a very welcome cash flow. My hair is growing out slowly but surely, and soon enough I'll get new headshots. I truly believe that once I get myself "out there" things will happen and that it's just a matter of time. The question is how long it will take. Who knows?

God probably.

Movie Reviews of the Day:
Sleuth - 4.5 stars
Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story - 4 stars
Iron Man - 4.5 stars
Ed Wood - 4 stars
Dan in Real Life - 4.5 stars

Oh, and I did simple guesstimation and math and I've seen over 1,000 films in my lifetime. Thats pretty cool I guess.